May 2012
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But I think I do this to myself.
What I feel is my own fault. [[MORE]] I feel so alone, but I don’t want anyone.  I’ve been having this problem where nothing has made me really happy lately.  Usually, I’m easily pleased.  I don’t know what’s wrong with me.  It’s a weird feeling, feeling empty unprovoked.  Feeling numb.  Tired.  Burned out.  Instead of happiness, I feel all these emotions I...
May 30th
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I think that's the common trend,
I’m just not ready. [[MORE]] “I think it’s best you don’t audition for that degree, I don’t think you’ll be ready.” “You show competence, but it is not at the level we usually see from IC flutists.” Maybe that’s it.  That’s what’s wrong with me.  I aspire to go too high, I reach too far.  As a result, I fail and crash and...
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James Marsden sings Frank Sinatra’s Witchcraft on Ally McBeal Again, two of my favorite things combined.  Tumblr is being so good to me tonight. <3
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I read.
I read for the first time in months.  I was banking on just going to sleep and letting things naturally take its course, but something in my head kept screaming “Romans 12, Romans 12”.  I didn’t even remember what it said or even if I had read it at all, but I didn’t let myself succumb to sleep until I read that passage along with a random proverb (which happened to be...
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I haven't felt this way since junior year
Make it stop.
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It's a broken hallelujah
I woke up to the sound of your voice.  Well, actually, I woke up literally ten seconds before your call. I woke up, figured you forgot about me, then rolled over.  And then you called. After I hung up, I rolled over and fell asleep for another hour and a half, defeating the purpose of the call.  Whoops…. Too much to do, so little time.
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But what is this?
Warum fuehle ich mich so froh? [[MORE]] What in the world just happened?  Why do I feel this way?  Why didn’t I think that was stupid or cheesy or lame or complete vomit?  Why, why, why? I guess I’m feeling more than I bargained for and I can’t decide whether I like it or not.  But I haven’t smiled like this since the first week we met.
May 22nd
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"I'm glad you all are still friends."
-My high school band director Me too.  It’s an incredible feeling to come home knowing that a good time is waiting for you. I’m way too fortunate for my own good.  And now, I don’t want to leave to go back. But I miss you.
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But before I sleep...
EMMANUEL PAHUD Y U NO PLAY DOPPLER?! But really, it’s not in your discography and that upsets me.  It’s okay, you’re still my favorite and you’re coming to Cornell this fall and I’ll probably cry a couple buckets if I don’t get to go see you.  So yeah. And another thing, why do all the great professional players look so natural while playing the flute?  I feel...
May 19th
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Cheesy Cheesy
But really. Fantasie pastorale hongroise by Doppler and the “Undine” Flute sonata by Reinecke have the ability to make me sob because they’re just so damn beautiful.  I can’t take it.  I want to play these pieces so badly it hurts.  Maybe it’s just because I have so much emotion built up inside and these pieces especially are so emotional.  The Doppler is lovely and...
May 19th
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walks into chair
me: sorry
chair:
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I'm feeling like
I’m being stretched in so many ways.  I just need it all to stop. I’m so tired, but I can’t even sleep.
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Genug ist genug
Ich will jeden Tag joggen.  Ich muss.  Ich fuehle mich so fett.  Ich hasse es. Auf Wiedersehen soda, Hi-Chew, iced tea, und Schokolade.  Hallo Wasser, Obst, Gemuese, und Joghurt.  Lecker. Vielleicht solle ich nicht neue Kleidung kaufen, um mich zu motivieren. Ich kann es tun!  Ja! Fick.
May 15th
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I apologize
I think I completely confused my boss.  I’ve been sitting here for about two hours doing work for him, aka I’ve been sending emails almost constantly for about an hour. Brain is mushhhhh. But it’s summer…what is relaxing?
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Anonymous asked: 1-21 odd (from that list of questions you reblogged)
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