verschwinden.

3 hour naps

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 14:55:50 -0400

Are the best of times…and worst of times…

Looks like the gym isn’t happening today.

Off to the mall to buy time and things that will kill time.

Also known as

Friendship bracelets.

What is my summer coming to?

I am afraid to write

Tue, 18 Jun 2013 09:30:49 -0400

Because that’s what makes it real.

Sweet Jesus, what have I done?

Mon, 17 Jun 2013 00:35:06 -0400

It was just nice to see your face. That’s all.

And that’ll be what’s on my mind for the week.

Happy hell week, guys.

BUT I made a dreamcatcher.

Maybe the dreams will stop.

It’s probably some placebo effect thing.

Dear Lord.

I’ve been praying for the same thing for so long.

There was something about

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 22:08:23 -0400

The way the sunlight met the darkness that allowed the stars to shine that made me feel lucky to be alive. In that moment, nothing else mattered, all that mattered were the stars and the sky and whatever layed beyond. It was a weird and unexpected moment of happiness and euphoria and wonderment and awe. For that brief moment, my problems didn’t matter, I didn’t miss my dad, I didn’t miss him, and I didn’t feel what I’ve been feeling for the past week and a half.

Can I have that feeling back?

I have no idea what just happened.

avengent: aaawhyme: tobejuliaagain: aetheling: “Pooh and...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 20:50:21 -0400

avengent:

aaawhyme:

tobejuliaagain:

aetheling:

“Pooh and his friends were given as gifts by author A. A. Milne to his son Christopher Robin Milne between 1920 and 1922. Pooh was purchased in London at Harrods for Christopher’s first birthday. Christopher later gave them to publisher E. P. Dutton, who in turn donated them to the New York Public Library.”

Oh my god. Oh my god.

This is them, guys. This is them. Got chills.

I’m more star struck from this picture, than I have been at any other moment in my life.

kadiance: edating: kadiance: edating: this made my night a...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 17:30:50 -0400

kadiance:

edating:

kadiance:

edating:

this made my night a lot better

I still don’t understand this.

PRE PEAR URANUS

And then Atticus Finch appeared

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 13:56:08 -0400

On my Facebook homepage. My heart melted a little bit.

It’s sort of weird what happens as a result of trying to fill a hole in your heart. Reading To Kill a Mockingbird senior year of high school lead me to developing the biggest daddy-crush on Atticus Finch. That character is so full of wisdom, patience, kindess, strength, and badassery — all things I aspire to have.

One day, some day in the future, my husband is going to be like Atticus Finch. ~~To be honest, I thought I had already found someone as great as him but whatever.~~ I want my kids to have that kind of respect, love, and kindess that Scout and Jem had for Atticus.

Maybe I should stop finding solace in fictional characters.

Time to blow the rest of my bank account (literally) on arts and crafts supplies, because God knows I need to do something else with my time besides watch television and work out. Flute? Yeah, that would be the logical thing to do, but right now being in a small room all alone is not very appealing to me at the moment. And it’s probably not good for my health either.

I know you miss him and I know you think about him often. I know he was your role model and that you’re quite the spitting image of him. I can tell you this much, there’s no way he can’t be proud of you right now. Your guardian angel has and always will be there for you.

Happy Father’s Day, y’all.

yall-mothafuckas-need-misha: refrigerhator: haha-l-m-a-o: Dead...

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 01:11:39 -0400

yall-mothafuckas-need-misha:

refrigerhator:

haha-l-m-a-o:

Dead.

Not as dead as snape

Get Out

The awkward moment when

Sun, 16 Jun 2013 00:23:15 -0400

You didn’t take any pictures of you and your dad with you and haven’t uploaded any of them online either…

I feel sort of empty. Happy Father’s Day, though. Only good die young, eh? Damn.

shelton-levine: underneath-the-oklahoma-sky: Blake Shelton...

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 22:14:57 -0400

shelton-levine:

underneath-the-oklahoma-sky:

Blake Shelton ladies and gentlemen.

Though their voices are silent their pleading looks will say

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 17:03:32 -0400

Oh hard times come again no more…

I wish I could be as detached. I’m drowning.

I’ve been told time and time again to pray. I have been. I feel like it’s a losing battle.

I feel so defeated.

birdasaurus: Ashley Davis by Isaac Aoki, May 2012

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 13:29:48 -0400

birdasaurus:

Ashley Davis by Isaac Aoki, May 2012

Good morning

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 10:40:45 -0400

A couple of minutes ago I woke up to the sound of dish washing. I knew in my dream that I was going to wake up soon, but I didn’t want to get up.

Mornings really are the worst. I wake up thinking about it all the time and today of all days…I miss him the most.

I fell asleep to the sounds of…yeah. So I put in my Friends DVD, turned up the volume, and fell asleep to that instead.

I have people surrounding me right now and I haven’t even left the couch. It’s silent. It’s weird.

I’m trying to function like a normal human being and hide away what I’m feeling…but I’m just not a morning person.

Photo

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 10:37:49 -0400

Photo

Sat, 15 Jun 2013 10:36:54 -0400

Photo

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 20:28:59 -0400

sam-the-moose: why can a bottle of pepsi waterbend but i can’t

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 19:57:35 -0400

sam-the-moose:

why can a bottle of pepsi waterbend but i can’t

ARRRRRGGGHHHHHH SUCH BIG MUSCLESSSSS Nah, hahah but my arms were...

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 15:09:57 -0400

ARRRRRGGGHHHHHH SUCH BIG MUSCLESSSSS

Nah, hahah but my arms were big at one point. Back when I was Drum Major. Interesting what conducting fourish hours a day does to your arms. Plus, smaller people need a slightly bigger pattern so, yeahh. That was that.

I look like a boy with this new gym tshirt recon. It’s sort of bizarre. I knew my haircut looked boyish, but having a flat chest sort of finishes the package…one small, tan, boyish package.

Should I get my hair cut differently? Poooop.

Photo

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 15:05:25 -0400

"I think you are wrong to want a heart. It makes most people unhappy. If you only knew it, you are in..."

Fri, 14 Jun 2013 12:13:37 -0400

“I think you are wrong to want a heart. It makes most people unhappy. If you only knew it, you are in luck not to have a heart.”

- L. Frank Baum, The Wonderful Wizard of Oz (via rsvnr)